Monday, August 6, 2012

Remembering May: 4/2/05-8/2/12


Tick, tock. I could hear the clock, slowly ticking my time away with May. May was in catastrophic kidney failure. Words that seemed unfathomable. Catastrophic…failure…it just didn’t seem like a seven year old cat could go from being fine, to barely recognizing me. The end always seems like it comes so quickly, but the gift of time was there – my family and I got to visit with May at the vet on Wednesday and today, Thursday.
May in 2005, she really grew into those big ears.

I went in today around 11 am, because we had taken in Pearl for a redo on her latest blood work. We got to see May. She still had a dazed look on her face, but she clearly knew who we were and that we were there for her. She let us pet her and rub her face and chin. She meowed once, when we stopped petting her.
Mom and I came back to visit her at 4:30 pm. May was not doing well. May looked just as out of it as she did this morning, but we could see on her face that she really didn’t feel good. They redid her blood work, but the most important value had only dropped 0.3, which was not nearly enough to indicate improvement, or that the fluid treatments were working.

May and her mama Vickie. You can see the wonderful patterns that are the same!

Mom and I sat with her in the examination room. She was twitchy and couldn’t get into a comfortable position. Tick, tock. The inevitable was coming, and we knew. We all knew. But saying it out loud? That it was her time – this seven year old cat that had been in for her regular check up in June and was fine, was on the brink of death? It seemed hard to believe. But I’ve heard that you know when it’s time, and it was time. It’s never an easy decision to make; even if you get to say goodbye.
Dad got there and we all sat with her. Talking to her, telling her about all the cats to say hi to for us; that she would see her kitten buddy Parker, who died months after adoption from FIP, and that we loved her so, so much.  Our vet, who said she hated to be the bad guy, to always have to tell the sad news, came in to help May.
May sleeping with Henry.

She went over the bridge a little past 5:45 pm, August 2nd, 2012. Memories of May’s life flooded our eyes, just thinking that the Shubin 7 had become six, was just unreal. It was hard to believe that our big little girl, the cat of 1000 names, was gone. 7 short years, 7 sweet years.

May and Pearl.
Words can’t describe how much I will miss May. She was one of the first kittens I ever had, a memory that will always be dear to me. Just knowing that she is finally with Parker, brings a smile to my face. I will miss my May, my Ana Maria Madonna Christina May, my Schmoogie, Moo, Moobelle, Maybelline, Mooshkie and all the other names she went by. I will think of her when I eat at Pinkberry (for her little pinkberry nose), when I see a empty cardboard box, her treat dance, tabby cats, cats with big ears and so many other things.
The beloved memories live on, and I give my cats extra love every day, just to remember how important their lives are, to me.
Taken July 23, 2012 - just 10 days before she died. She had not given any signs of  kidney failure.

May and my mom, who she dearly loved. May would pet my mom's face.

May Shubin, April 2, 2005 to August 2, 2012.

A gorgeous photo of May from 2011, taken by our friend Bernadette.

22 comments:

  1. What a beautiful tribute to May, Rachel. These sudden losses are incomprehensible and unbearable. My heart goes out to all of you.

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    1. Thanks Ingrid, it is definitely hard to understand why it happened so quickly.

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  2. Oh, Rachel, I'm so sorry. It's horrible to lose a cat friend at such a young age. Sending hugs and love to you and every member of your family. I'm sure my sweet Dahlia was there to greet May on the other side of the Bridge, and now they're both frolicking together, free from pain and illness.

    Hugs, hugs, and more hugs.

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    1. Thanks JaneA. I'm sure Dahlia was there to greet May and hopefully they are pain free now. Hugs.

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  3. I am so sorry to hear of your loss of May and also of your loss of Parker - I too lost a kitty to FIP.

    What a wonderful tribute to her, and I hope in time that the good memories are no longer so painful to remember.

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    1. Thank you Connie. FIP is a nasty, horrible disease. I hope it will be able to be cured soon. I am so glad to have many wonderful memories of May.

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  4. So sorry to hear about May :(
    You made a really beutiful tribute to May in this post <3

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    1. Thanks Kjelle. I'm glad you liked it, it was very hard to write.

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  5. Oh my goodness. Rachel.... I have tears in my eyes. I'm so sorry for your loss. This is such a wonderful story, thank you for sharing with us. I'll give all my kitties some extra cuddles today in memory of May. Lots of hugs and warmest wishes to you and your family. <3

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    1. Thank you so much Azizah. I'm glad you liked the tribute, and thank you for giving your kitties extra cuddles!

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  6. Rachel, you described it so well.

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    1. Thanks Bernadette - thank you for taking that absolutely gorgeous picture of May! I always will think of her like that. I guess I really am a writer :)

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  7. We are so sorry for your loss.

    This happened with our beans and Flair back in January 2010. This just puts tears in our eyes.

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    1. Thanks The Zoo. I'm so sorry for your loss as well.

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  8. Oh Rachel, we're so very very sorry for your loss! What a beautiful tribute to her....

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    1. Thanks Lisa, Faraday, Maxwell and Allie.

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  9. I am so sorry about your loss of your beloved friend. Kidney disease is a really hard thing to watch your cats suffer through. Your story made me tear up and remember my own loss of Cameo. Beautiful photos, what a great love she was!

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    1. Thanks Bonnie. It's so horrible to lose a cat to kidney disease, I'm sorry you went through the same thing with your kitty Cameo. I'm glad I have so many beautiful photos of her, she will always be such a beautiful cat.

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  10. The sweet pictures and your heartfelt account made me cry. So, so sorry for your loss.

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    1. Thanks Ally. I cried the whole time I wrote the post.

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  11. Rachel I am so deeply sorry!!!!!!!!!!! This was just beautiful. May was taken way too soon, I am soooo sorry!!!! ((((hugs))))))))

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    1. Thanks Caren, I know you can sympathize. She was taken too soon, and I'll never know why. I hope she is comfortable now.

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